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hey-
i've been on LJ before, but decided to create a new journal since my other one was too.. ergh-ish. so, anyways, hello! comment to friend-ify me! i don't bite at all. ^^ 

before friending me, please tell me who you are, and where i know you from; if i don't know you and you just feel like making a new friend, i'll be glad to do that - as long as you're not a creepy stalker.
ask me my address and you'll be blocked. :D

thanks. [:

-Kristy :)

i got over him. i didn't see the point of liking someone who never.... ever, did anything.
but there's this guy... one of the sweetest i know, and he does more things with me, to me, than that other guy ever did.
for once, he pokes me back when i poke him - HE GRABS MY HAND, and.... that other guy? all he did was look at me.
well, normally this new guy doesn't hug people, but he hugged me on Friday, and then my friend was like, "he normally doesn't hug people..." and she SMILED AT ME. 
i don't know; i have a feeling he might like me back... 
but i'll have to try to.... hint my feelings for him more, because i am sooo not hurting myself again if he says no.
he'll have to make the first move...

i'm kinda surprised i've moved on so fast, really. but it's nice. he's nice, he's sweet, and he's perfect height.
and he likes to make me happy :]

^ enough said with the title huh?
i don't understand guys sometimes. one day you think they just MIGHT like you back, the next, nothing.
only one little "thanks."
but it's okay, because he's busy, i love him, and  if i want him to love me to, i have to be understanding.
and i'm trying, i really am.
it's just.... hard.

ugh, i'll edit this when i have time.
get into more detail x]

it  happened again.
i fell for the guy i thought i got over in January, and now i can't stop thinking about him.
of course he and his girlfriend broke up (she initiated it;) and i dont think he's over her yet.
two of my friends asked for me if he liked me, and both times, "no."
so, i dont know what to do anymore.
do i keep liking him? (i mean, i've liked him for two years, i think i can wait a couple more months before I tell him officially.)
soo... i'll still keep you guys posted (who's ever following, i mean.)

ohmygooddddness, this sucks.
i just woke up like, half an hour ago.
ugh, when school comes around, i will totally be like, dead or something.
or! even worse?
i'll probably come to school in the middle of the period, my hair looking like... like, crap, and my clothes all disheveled and my face all sweaty because i was running the 1.2 miles to school from my house.

ohemgee, that can TOTALLY happen.
UGH.
i need to practice sleeping at the right time. :/

-toffeecakesxox.

on the 24th of june, wednesday, i watched... *drumroll!* TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN.
and, OHEMGEE, it was hilarious.
i'd do a spoiler cut right now, but i'm being lazy, so maybe later. :)
ummm... what else.
that's pretty much it, but, today?

today is my dog, Toffee's 5th birthday. <333
happy birthday baby doggg, i love youuu! :D

i'm obsessed with last.fm now. honestly, i was wondering what all the hype was, but now i get it.
it's AMAZING.
soo, yeah, that was it. :)
hahaha, short. :D

Title: Breaking Restrictions.
Chapter: one.
Author: toffeecakesxox. (as in, me.)
Date Submitted: May 16, 2009.
Genre: Romance/General.
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,950.
Link: Because, Sometimes #1.

cut: -

material © copyright to toffeecakesxox. (aka: me.)
please don’t plagiarize. or else.

note: this isn't the entire thing. click the link, and REVIEW or COMMENT.
thankss. :)

oh, and you know my avatar? it totally matched with this. ;)

okay, so i wrote this on an empty page in my yearbook, after summer started. && this counts for you guys, too, the ones i talk to over the internet. ;) 

what my friends are to me: 
ok! i'll write in this page myself :) i miss my friends already. :/ i miss seeing them @ least 5 days a week, i miss talking to them, i miss listening to the weirdest, perverted jokes everyone somehow comes up with. & even though i am officially understanding those aforementioned jokes, i don't really mind, as long as it means my friends have their odd sense of humor. because, as weird as it is, i love the fact that my friends hang around me, even though i'm the "innocent" one - they're corrupting me. :D 
now that jr. high's over, i know i'm gonna make new friends, but, as long as i have my awesome, wonderful friends of (insert school name) here, i'll survive high school with them by my side. =)

now... i just have to show them. XP 

love,
-toffeecakesxox.

title = 'nuff said.
ugh, summah's started and i am so bored lately.
well, i better go watch a movie. :) 

-toffeecakesxox.

so i haven't updated in a while.
and now i have; lol.
nooo, just kidding - i'm being too lazy to update with this humongosaur post, and i'll just leave it here - i might edit later.

-toffeecakesxox.

so i haven't been updating this LJ (i know, i'm terrible!) but it's because i found blogger which is pretty awesome itself. soooo here's the link:

toffeecakesxox.blogspot.com

ta-da! 

hugs & kisses (xox),
toffeecakesxox. :) 

I feel as if my heart's been ripped out and shredded into pieces with a blunt paper opener. I love him (yes, I admit it), but he likes someone else, and I don't know what to do. I want to be his friend, but I also want to throw a screaming fit, saying, "I'M IN FREAKING LOVE WITH YOU, DARNIT, AND I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME BACK!" but I'm not that type of person. Whatever happens, I'm still his friend, and I have to stand by him; he can like anyone he wants, can't he? As much as I want him to like me, I, optimistic person that I am, still do have a chance. At least, I hope so. Anyway, guys have crushes like ice cream melts; something capricious, changeable. My heart hurts, especially since this is my first heartbreak, my first love (maybe?), and, I don't know, I just feel as if I can't live without the guy. What will happen? I'll keep you posted. I'm confused about everything, though, especially since I  just feel so darn sad.

Nevertheless, I feel lonely. Unloved. Jealous. Confused sums those up nicely.

-Kristy :) 

Youtube (music) link: www.youtube.com/watch